Scared but...

I'm terrified about the operation. Mum says that it would be more scary not to have it, because if I don't, one day my heart won't be able to go on any more. If the op goes OK, I won't have any more heart problems at all – ever. And now is a good time to do it. I know she's right, but I wake up in the night sometimes and can't sleep. It's hard to look forward to Christmas with this big thing in between. I'm glad my family and friends will be thinking about me.